THIS IS MY REPLY

First off, I know I HAD a great opportunity! Its going to be rough once I move out but Ive done it before and I can again.

I didnt and dont think its anybodies job to do anything for me. I take care of my child they best way that I can. Everyone cooked and cleaned! Yes Alicia cooked most of the time but she is a way better cook than I am. But I DID cook for her and Matt as well did Matt cooked for us. I cleaned the house constantly during the day... the kitchen the most. There was multiple times I would have the house looking great and Matt would come home and put a piece of furniture together before Alicia got home. Or Alicia would get home and things would get cluttered and I wouldnt touch her stuff cause i didnt want to lose anything. I took out my fair bags of trash and when we first moved in, on trash day I would take the trash to the curb. As for picking up after me, I tried my damn hardest that all my stuff was in my room. Sure I missed a few things but im human.

Now to hit your "shop"ing comment. That was one of our deals. She would get me the necessities because I wasnt getting that much for spending money. Plus I never once asked her to buy me something. You might count the swimsuit but 1. I didnt have one and she wanted us to go swimming. and 2. she hadn't paid me yet so I didnt have my own money.


Plus before they had the basement neatly set up I barely had the girls play down there. Once we did, Thats when I would clean upstairs. Alicia had them alone downstairs more than I did.

You nor Alicia new when I got up. I would normally be up somewhere from 7:30-8 cause at 8 I fed them! I ALWAYS fed them around 8! SO dont you dare say I didnt feed them. We didnt have a monitor down there for awhile so I never knew what time Sophia got up if it was before 7:30! Its NOT my fault that Sophia did not come upstairs to go potty when she woke up. As of KB and Viv being left in their diapers for hours THAT is not true as well. I changed them frequently and often told Alicia we were out of diapers and she would say we had some. She didnt know how many i changed in a day.

As for the way Karly is treated. She is treated very well thank you! I did a lot of things with the girls. Yes not much for educational but oh well. I still did a lot with them I even had a playdoh set they played with. Oh and Karlys developmental state. She is slow in speaking but SHE IS GETTING BETTER EVERYDAY! She understands EVERYTHING I tell her. Yes I need to work on colors and numbers and letters but other than that she is very well developed. I HAVE talked to her doctor and she gave me information and said I just need to talk to her more, which I am and everyday she has a new word! Your not here so you dont know whats going on, and what i am doing for and with her.

Ok Alicia is more of an adult than I am. I admit that. She is very mature and such. But I do NOT sit at home making a mess and expect her to clean it up for me! I DONT want people to feel sorry for me. SHE was the one who wanted me to live with her and I agreed. She nor I had to do so. And to say that I expect things to handed to me is such bull! Oh and with the depression thing. I think your just trying to make shit up. No I am not depressed. Im mostly lazy but I do get off my ass and get what I need to get done, done. I get warn out easy. But I do do the dishes and clean the kitchen and bathroom and if I had time the living room. I think I cleaned more than Alicia did before all this shit happened.

The last thing I want is for Alicia to feel like she is stuck with me and needs to baby me. I dont! She's the one wanting to help me so if she does feel like it maybe she should stop. Sorry that I felt like a guest at your house. When I have a guest over I tend to do things for them, sorry if you didnt want to treat me as one.

I personally dont care that you resent me in driving the truck. It was NOT my fault im doing so. I liked the Explorer more than the truck but that was Alicias decision. She was the one who told me that she was giving the explorer to you. I was going to rely on buses to get everywhere and then Alicia told me you were giving her the truck. I personally dont like trucks but its transportation so im using it to my advantage.

I NEVER once blamed Alicia for what happened! I was mad at first but once we talked I owned up to my faults! I got a job and I am planning on moving out! As for people "talking to me repeatedly" HA! Matt nor Demi have come up to me and said shit to me! Jaimie has a couple times and I did take her advice to heart and she maybe only came to talk to me twice about it! Alicia barely came up to me to tell me if i needed to do things better.

But anyways. I really wish you did see what I did everyday, up until what had happened. But thats life. you will only get one side and I dont blame you for taking your daughters.

Message cont. (2-2)

There are things that we are supposed to learn in kindergarten, such as if you make a mess clean it up. I cannot believe that you expect to sit around and make giant messes without participating at all in the clean up efforts. Alicia is stuck in a horrible position. She is only 1 year older than you, however, she is apparently supposed to be the adult and do everything, while everyone is supposed to feel sorry for you. I don’t. Maybe you missed the boat growing up and think that life should be handed to you and comes with free maid service or maybe you are depressed. If you are depressed and didn’t used to act like this then I think you should get some help. If you are just irresponsible and filthy, then wake up and grow up. Either way, your daughter needs you.
If you were anyone other than who you are, Alicia would have fired you within a week or so and you would have been long gone. However, she is stuck feeling responsible for you. I also know that she isn’t exaggerating. When you were at my house, you didn’t clean up a thing or get up unless made to do so. HELLO!!!

As for me, I’m mad at you for not taking good care of the girls. I also resent you driving the truck. I liked that truck and the Explorer should have stayed Alicia’s to be sold when no one needed it for the girls anymore.

Normally I stay out of things, but those girls are my grandchildren and you are blaming Alicia as though this is her fault. Everyone including Matt, Jamie and Demi talked to you repeatedly to no avail. I doubt that this will have any more impact on you, but I needed to state my peace.
Nannette"

Message from my best friends mom (pt 1-2)

Nannette Gilbert September 2 at 2:03pm Reply
Haley,
I have known you your entire life and am extremely distraught about recent events. I do and will continue to love you. For many years you have called me mom too, so I feel that I have the right to tell you how I feel. You were offered a great opportunity. Between the room, board, vehicle, car insurance, Internet and Cable, utilities, etc., it would take in excess of $20,000 a year job to have the same lifestyle. Actually probably even more.

No one has asked unreasonable things of you. Alicia knew ahead of time that you weren’t the best housekeeper. However, what she didn’t know was that you think that it is someone else’s job to do everything for you. To cook for your child, clean the house, take out the trash, shop, and even to pick up after you. The stories that I’ve been told about you sitting around on the computer for hours while the girls played unattended downstairs are astounding. Alicia came home day after day to a filthy house in which nothing was done. Your job as a nanny was a bare minimum effort at best. I do not understand how you think it can be okay to spend hours in the morning in bed while three small children walk around unattended, unfed, and unwatched. Sophia resorted to peeing on her bedroom floor in the morning until she was taught by Alicia to go upstairs and use the potty by herself. She is three, hello. Both Karly and Viv were left in dirty diapers for hours at a time, ew!!! I pray that nothing bad happens to Karly. She should not be treated this way every day. You also left them to do nothing educational or constructive, but to watch TV for hours. Have you even looked up developmental stuff about Karly. You should, because she is behind and needs better attention."

All Dressed Up

All Dressed Up
written by Luke Brown and Mallary Hope

It’s coming down outside
Baby, we could thank the weather
For keeping us in, it’s no ordinary night
Let’s open up our best wine
Steal a dance and a kiss
And baby stay just like this

I wanna look at you
Like you just stole my breath
I wanna talk to you
Let the moment speak its best
I wanna live this night and feel this rush
And tremble when we touch
I wanna love, I wanna love
Like we’re all dressed up

When our hair is grayin’
This life is movin’ slower than it used to
When the sun is fadin’
And our story’s gotten older
When we’ve walked so far
Wherever we are

I wanna look at you
Like you just stole my breath
I wanna talk to you
Let the moment speak its best
I wanna live this night and feel this rush
And tremble when we touch
I wanna love, I wanna love
Like we’re all dressed up

Oh… I wanna look at you
Like you just stole my breath
I wanna talk to you
Let the moment speak its best
I wanna live this night and feel this rush
And tremble when we touch
I wanna love, I wanna love, I wanna love
Like we’re all dressed up
Like we’re all dressed up"

Break Your Heart

You stood there on that sidewalk
In front of God and everyone
You told me your goodbyes and
I could’ve swore I saw you smilin’
While I just came undone
All your friends will watch the show
You wanted your freedom
And now you don’t

Well I’m gonna break, break your heart
On the radio

I didn’t want to have to do this
Waste a perfectly good song
I’d rather be singing about love I can believe in
And not one that’s gone wrong
But it’s all for you
Yeah, it’s heartfelt
You broke mine and payback is hell

Well I’m gonna break, break your heart
On the radio

You’re tellin’ me you don’t want us to be over
You better pull your car over on the shoulder
'Cause. I’m gonna break, break your heart
Yeah gonna break, break your heart
On the radio, yeah
On the radio

Orders - Country Corps Street Team

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Hey Yall! Good news! I'm moving in with Alicia sometime in June!! Its going to be SICK! I will be taking care of Sophia and Vivian while Alicia is working. I'm proud of her! So in the house it will be all girls! A one two and three year old. Its going to be crazy yet fun!

I called into KYGO this morning just to chat with my favorite people! Jenny D answered the phone and she ended up giving me 4 tickets for the speedway tomorrow! Alicia Katie and the girls are going along with Jeff and Dalton (Al's dad and lil bro).

Kelly Ford ended up sending me a shout out over the radio (even tho i was on the phone with her still) She called me her favorite listener and the segue it into a mothers day call in shout out thing they where doing! Shes one crazy chick that Kelly Ford, but I luv her face!

I am planning a David Nail Poster attack for this weekend! I received a TON of posters and I'm going to attack Longmont with them :)

That's all the Good News going on! Will update later!

Oh and Fave Song Today:
Pray For You by Jason and The Long Road to Love

Bunches XoXo

HOMECOMING QUEEN

I’ve always been a little left of the middle but right
where I belong
So many things to see, never one to settle, if you
were a hat I’d try you on
I’ve never been shy, my heart don’t lie, been livin’
on the right side of wrong
Chorus:
I don’t worry ‘bout this, don’t worry ‘bout that
I worry ‘bout where I am, not where I’m not at
I may talk too much but I say what I mean
I ain’t worried ‘bout me, ain’t worried ‘bout you
I worry ‘bout what I can, not what I can’t do
I never needed to be the homecoming queen

When I was five, I’d play dress up
And hook up Barbie with GI Joe
Now that I’m older, I must fess up, I miss those days
when I’m alone
You can call me strange and I may never change
But I think I’m happy so

Repeat Chorus

Just me and Norma Jean, doing our own thing,
making our own heaven
I may not get my way but I will be okay
I still count my blessings

Repeat Chorus

Never needed to be the homecoming queen

Wildflowers

July sun shining down on Tinker Bell
And Peter Pan in an open field
We would run always hiding from Captain Hook
And pinky-swear we’d never grow up
Walk the plank to the end
Count to three, then we’d jump into

Wildflowers
Sweet as a memory on the vine
Honeysuckle innocence
Lookin’ back oh, how I miss those
Wildflowers

There it was
It was love just the two of us
There in a midnight rush
A spotlight moon
Played a lullaby that we danced to
Yeah, our favorite tune
Bluest eyes leanin’ in
For a kiss right there in the middle of

Wildflowers
Sweet as a memory on the vine
Honeysuckle innocence
Temptation on my lips like
Wildflowers

We get older, we get wiser
Pictures fade and seasons change
It gets easy forgetting moments
But somehow I still remember
Those Wildflowers
Ooo, Yeah

Wildflowers
Sweet as a memory on the vine, yeah
Honeysuckle innocence
Lookin’ back oh, how I miss those
Wildflowers
Those Wildflowers

Lets Just Fall In Love

Let’s pretend, baby
That you’ve just met me
And I’ve never seen you before
And I’ll tell all my buddies
That I think you’re sexy
And you say the same to yours

And oh, we’ll dance around it all night
And then I’ll follow you outside
I’ll try to open up my mouth
And nothing comes out right

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don’t have to try
It’s so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because it’s so funny
Let’s just think about it, honey
Let’s just fall in love again

You’ll call me in three days
Not too soon, not too late
And you’ll ask my roommate if I’m home
You’ll see me on Thursday
And we’ll hang out all day
And we’ll fall asleep on the phone

And oh, you’ll hold my hand when we drive
And I’ll put you in my top five
We’ll tell all our friends
That we have never felt so alive

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don’t have to try
It’s so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because it’s so funny
Let’s just think about it, honey
Let’s just fall in love again

We’ll fall disgustingly fast
And we’ll stop hanging out with friends
And they’ll get so offended
Oh, Yeah
I wanna fall in love with you again

Yeah, I wanna fall in love with you again
I don’t have to try
It’s so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because it’s so funny
Let’s just think about it, honey
Let’s just fall in love again

Oh, let’s just fall in love again
Yeah, let’s just fall in love again

Cigarette Lyrics

Shoulda stayed lonely, shoulda stayed bored and broken
I shoulda been alright, just for the night
But this noise in my head on my cold empty bed
Makes me need somethin to pass the time
Damn this old weakness, the first taste of sweetness
The lump in my throat, ya give a girl enough rope

Shoulda let my hair down for dancing
Shoulda wrapped myself in a blanket
Shoulda been drinkin just to forget
Shoulda left my lipstick on a cigarette

Tried to put you out, tried to clear the air
But I'm breathin your breath as I die a slow death
What burns like a flash is ashes to ashes

Shoulda let my hair down for dancing
Shoulda wrapped myself in a blanket
Shoulda been drinkin just to forget
Shoulda left my lipstick on a cigarette

Shoulda closed my eyes to dream about you holdin me

Shoulda let my hair down for dancing
Shoulda wrapped myself in a blanket
Shoulda been drinkin just to forget
Shoulda left my lipstick on a cigarette

Shoulda left my lipstick on a cigarette

Mmm, mmm, mmm
Mmm, mmm, mmm

Times Like These

Got your hand, on the wheel
With my bare feet up on the dashboard
We’re talkin’ and snackin’ on gas station food as the signs roll by

Can’t recall, the last time
I laughed this hard there were tears in my eyes
Catchin’ my breath cause of what you just said
I think to myself it don’t get better than this

To soak it in eat it up close our eyes let the sun kiss our skin
Take in and drive
Love is a highway and baby we’re on it
Here in the moment while you’re laughing with me
Don’t you just wish we could freeze
Times like these.

Music on, some old song
Neither one of us know but we try to sing along
We’re makin’ up the words and it’s turned up loud
Top of our lungs with the windows down

To soak it in eat it up close our eyes let the sun kiss our skin
Take in and drive
Love is a highway and baby we’re on it
Here in the moment while you’re laughing with me
Don’t you just wish we could freeze
Times like these.

Time goes by as fast as the wheels on the pavement fly

Hey won’t you drive
And love is a highway and baby we’re on it
Here in the moment while you’re laughin with me
Don’t you just wish we could freeze
Times like-times like these
I love these times like these

Laura Bell Bundy, Boyfriend? Lyrics

Can I call you my boyfriend yet?
That make you nervous, that make you sweat?
Swore we would'nt commit
But baby we're a perfect fit
People look at me confused when I lovingly
refer to you as my

Chorus:
Man toy, lover boy, sweetheart that brings me joy
better half, sweetie pie
Yes, I'm still seein' that same guy
No labels, no fuss, livin' in the now for us
Or can I call you my boyfriend?
(Man toy, lover boy, come over here and bring me joy)
(Man toy, lover boy)

What's a big boy like you afraid?
I'm not lookin' to change my name
I don't need a diamond ring
Just an easier way to explain this thing
I don't wanna scare you away but baby give me somethting better to say
Than my

Repeat Chorus

My daddy asked my momma, my momma asked my friends
My friends all wanna date me when this comes to an end
Don't get me started, got the keys to your apartment
I'm just sick and tired of havin' to pretend
That you're my

Repeat Chorus Twice

Man toy, lover boy, come over here and bring me joy
Better half, sweetie pie
Lovin' on the fly guy
Ain't just a bootie call, I'm on the way
My pictures on the wall and I'm here to stay

Ba,ba,ba,ba,ba,ba boyfriend(x4)

"One word frees us from all the weight and

pain in life: that word is love." -Sophocles



From the moment

that I saw you,

never could I imagine

that youcould just

walk into my life

and turn everything around

you love took away

the pain.

My heart skips a beat

just thinking that

you will be there.

But never could I know

that you would be

everything that I stand for.

My hope for a new day.

I want you to know

that love that I express

is because of you.

Alone

I'm surrounded by people

but I feel so alone

all I want is to be loved

to be cared for

can anyone see me

does anyone see me

does anyone care

the family I knew

is no longer there

can the see

the hurt that I have

the pain that I carry

that its that bad

people arn't focused

on the pain that is there

they just walk on by

pretend they don't care

thinking that it will go away

but I am still hurting

the pain is still here

all I can do is run

hide from my fears

Listen to iAmJunebugs Playlist

Moonlight

Moonlight take my worries
and put them among the stars.
Keep them there forever
and never let them fall.

Fire

The fire surrounds me

I cant get out

I feel the heat

it burns so close

wanting to leave

but I cant move

hoping to get out

from this depth

I call for hours

but they cant hear

I'm getting week

knees cant stand

I see someone coming

my vision is blurry

I cant see anymore

I hear chaos

I am lifted

I am out of the fire

never will I play

with the match and lighter

Morning Breeze

walking in the room
I see you in the morning breeze
singing so carelessly

Old poem I thought I lost

Does it always

feel like this

the joy of pain

as blood slips

down your wrist

the rush you get

as the knife

touches your skin

to watch the blood

drip...

fall...

hit the floor

suddenly you snap

out of your daze

you get up slowly

it stars to sting

Authors Note: If you feel like cutting please reach out for help! No matter what it is... it is NOT as bad as it seems!

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This Saturday, Kat and I had a blast hanging up Mallary Hope Flyers! We attacked Main street and posted 14 flyers!! We had 30 but we were unable to post the rest due to running out of tape :(

Yet this was just the beginning of out Mallary Town Attack. Next Saturday Kat and I are heading to Pearl Street Mall in BOULDER to post 50! YES 50!

Keep tuned for our video of our Boulder attack on 4/17!

Mallary you ROCK my COUNTRY MUSIC ;)

So today was eventful! Was going to go to Boulder to Hang up Mallary flyer's yet my sister, Alicia called me and needed me to come down. So we (kat ma and kb) went all the way to Evans. We spent a lot of time talking. It was good. She is doing good. The kids are good and back with her! She is hopefully moving to Aurora in the coming months and asked if I wanted to move in with her. It would actually be amazing!

I also did a good deed today! I grabbed the neighbors cat and am keeping him safe till they arrive back. He's very skittish but very friendly. Karly is having fun chasing him around the room. (yet he stinks) This just makes me want a cat for Karly.

Well that's all for this post! :)

Tuesday was one of the BEST days of my LIFE! My wonderful Step-Dad bought me Taylor Swift tickets for my birthday/Christmas! So I took my friend Tiffany and arrived at the Pepsi Center @ 2pm! It was so windy! We froze our butts off. While hopeing to be picked to go backstage we ran into Rider from KYGO morning show! We talked to him FOREVER! He made fun of me for being cold and for having so much Taylor stuff. He even called me a Taylor Stalker! Did I mention he was recording this? Well he was and he was asking us what we would give to meet Taylor. I said I would eat a worm. While talking to us for like 10 minutes he finally asked me my name... I told him... and he said "NO WAY YOUR HALEY SEARS FROM FACEBOOK??" yep that was me! He then went on and named my MOM and my SISTER!! That's when Tiffany replied "STALKER" haha epic! I'm actually glad I make such an impact.

I then saw my lovely second mama Kelly Ford! She took us on the KYGO bus and i finally met Mellisa B. Garret Doll and Paul Donovan! It was amazing. We didn't stay long due to Tiffany got KELLIE PICKLER meet&greets from CAT COUNTRY (colo springs station)!! Did I mention how much I LOVE HER?!?!?!
That brings me to the above picture! We proceeded inside and went and waited to meet Kellie! We were having so much fun. We passed a Taylor trunk (below) and I smiled thinking 'I'm actually BACKSTAGE!' When Kellie finally should up I couldn't breath! She was so petite!! Plus she was uber nice! I loved loved her accent!! When we finally left we totally missed ALL of Gloriana's performance. BUT who cares cause I MET KELLIE PICKLER!!!!!!!!!

The performances were so so amazing!!! It goes down as one of the best nights I have ever had!!

Well you stood there with me in the doorway

My hands shake, I'm not usually this way

But you pull me in and I'm a little more brave

Its the first kiss, it's flawless, really somethin'

Its FEARLESS

Cause I don't know how it gets better than this

You take my hand drag me headfirst, fearless

And I don't know why but with you I'd dance

In a storm in my best dress

FEARLESS

Only In My Dreams

Only in my dreams
I could hold you close
And never let you go
In my dreams
I could kiss you
And do it all the time
In my dreams
We would ride among the stars
And leave footprints in our paths
Only in my dreams
I could touch your face
And not be afraid of heartbreak.
In my dreams
I can say I love you
And that happens
Only in my Dreams.

This photo was taken in Sidonia, Arizona! I absolutely love it. It was one of the first photos I've ever taken! It was so fun putting this in the sepia solution! This is one thing I miss terribly! Plus this trip was amazing!